oh yeah.

by the way, i wish i could let stuff go and not make it so dramatic. i wish i could have faith that things will take care of themselves.

So the last few days have basically been ruled by unanswered questions, such as...

Why am i taking this AP test?!
Why do I give infinite chances to those who don't deserve them.
Why do I keep thinking people will change.
Why do I love everyone, and think everyone hates me.
Why must I always care what people think.
Why do I doubt my friendships.
Why do I have to snap at my sisters.
Why am I shocked when someone tells me the truth.

Sometimes I get depressed for no reason at all. Someone might not be insanely excited to talk to me on aim, and i think they hate me. I all of the sudden get this random idea that someone is pissed at me, when I have no reason to think they are.

I'm unstable.
and in great need of hanging out with... anyone, really.  so please talk to me and give me plans as celebration for when this paper is over.  Seriously, do it.

All-state audition in two and a half hours. Wish me luck?

wow i haven't been on here in a while.  so here's the deal

this past weekend was guys and dolls
friday night was soo good! i was really proud of the cast for really pulling it off well
after that i went with chloe to denny's and we sat with henry and aaron knopp
and henry, in mock anger, threw the dessert thing and broke it
it was kind of hysterical
because then he wrote an apology note
(henry comment this with the note i know it was funny i just forget what it said)

haha then i went to sleeeepy and then the next day was hyso. and jess wasn't there. so it really wasn't so much fun. however we spent a long time on scheherazade mvt. 2 which made me real happy.

then i took a nap
and went to the saturday show
which was 8 and a half times better than the first
it was really good
then we all went to the cast party
at henry's house
and i told everyone i may be moving
which probably wasn't the best idea in the world
a: because i don't know for sure
b: because everybody freaked out
c: people couldn't stop talking about it
d: depressed the crap out of me

so before that my parents told me that in two months we can get a really good mortgage on a house,  better than if we waited til after i graduated.
and even before that we had looked at a house in fairport, 4 bedrooms, TWO BATHROOMS.
i would miss you all if we moved, but seriously. 5 people can not use one bathroom for much longer.

so i've mostly been depressed about it lately because honestly at this point i really do not want to change schools. i have too many friends here that i would miss.
oh, and the school says there's no way i can pay to spend senior year in ER while living in fport. so not cool.

honestly, i don't know what to think about it. i'll let you know when things are more definite.

gretchies birthday today!! and jessie's and hannah's and TJ's!! haha jess.

yeah, i didn't get home in time.  we didn't even get through the whole show.

I got my permit today! Yes, I know I'm turning 17 in three months, but its kinda cool that i got it.  I drove twice around the school parking lot then my daddy let me drive home! I need to work on looking both ways, its kind of a problem.  :P 

The Murphy kids are here today! (Emma is three and Erin is maybe 8 months?) They are sooo crazy adorable.  

Ugh, in a half hour i have to go to school for pit rehearsal.  Here's hoping I get out in time to watch the office? 

Today was probably awesomely boring.  I really should have started my chem paper, but what can I say, I'm a procrastinator.  But who isn't? Honestly, if I start the paper like a week from now I will probably be the first one to start.  Anyway, today was my Mom's birthday.  I knowww you're all wondering how my cleaning endeavor turned out.  Well... I did two loads of laundry and half sorted what was already clean and thrown all over the place.  I try. 

umm hi lets talk about HOUSE last night!!! can you say amaaazing???? Well I won't go into details because you never know who hasn't seen it yet. but lets just say it was really good. 

No one has called me to hang out besides my dearest friend Claire since Saturday.  I feel neglected, unloved, and forgotten.  But Claire is awesome.  I'm seriously in love with that child. And Chlo is in Ohio, so the twins-aman hangouts will have to wait a while.  but again, claire is awesome.

Well, since today was my mom's bday, she and her best friend Becki went to a spa for a few hours and Becki's 9 year old daughter Tabbie came to hang for a while.  I loooooove Edgewood children, and Tabitha Jade is one of the best, so we pretty much had a blast.  Pics will soon be on facebook.  We went to Edmund Lyon for a while and Tab and Em played on the swings while Noelle dragged me around the park. She's so funny how she thinks that she can climb trees to get squirrels.  Cutest dog in existence, but she's not too bright. Then we went back home and played Cranium, and Kay came over to drop off shoes and a purse for prom. I'm sorry, KayLee, but every time I looked at that purse it got uglier and uglier. But you knew that already, thats why you gave it to me! So me and Tabitha Jade and Em found all the ribbons inside and made it as hideous as you can make a tiny little purse with ribbons.  Pics of little ugly purse will soon emerge on facebook, once Tabbie gets back to me with her additions to the ugliness. 

Ahhhhhh only an hour and a half til CSI:NY!! It's my new favorite show. 

Have a party crazies!

(I'm a bit apprehensive about doing this on my mom's laptop, because lately my dad has been breaking into my facebook. Stupid firefox with your stupid save password thing that I just haaad to accept. But here goes)

So today was the day I really did lots of nothing.  I went to the library in the city with my Dad and Em and I picked up the books I need for my chemistry paper, however I still didn't start it.  It's nice to know I could now that I'm prepared, though.  We also got craploads (well, 6) movies in the other part of the library across the street.  It is seriously an awesome place.  My sister got Desperate Housewives for Gretchen, Scooby Doo for herself, and another one I can't remember.  I got When Harry Met Sally (finally!), Ocean's 11, and The Sure Thing, a classic that both Gretchie and myself are totally in love with.  So I watched When Harry Met Sally, a movie that some crazy kid has been wanting me to watch for like 8 and a half years, and yeah.  I'm about to watch Ocean's 11, although I could go to bed because Claire wanted us to watch it together, and the second one.  Is Ocean's 12 on dvd yet? ohh well. 

Tomorrow is my Mom's birthday, and I've decided to clean the house, or at least attempt to.  What that really means is dishes and laundry.  So it shouldn't be too difficult.  However, after many lessons, I still have no idea how to work the dishwasher, so please, wish me luck.

Sleepy time for the masses!!

So today was kinda the first day off from school? So I was up pretty late last night watching Seven Brides for Seven Brothers.  I freaking love that movie.  Then I woke up at 11 30, which pretty much made my life, and an all-time sleeping-in-no-matter-how-late-i-stayed-up record.  At 3 we went and picked up Claire and Caitlin/Jules and went to target, then we met Kate and saw Blades of Glory.  Ok, I'm sorry, all you diehard Talladega Nights fans out there, but Blades of Glory is much funnier than it. Like eight and a half times. I love Will Ferrell, but Jon Heder is kind of overrated.  Plus he can't stop talking like Napoleon Dynamite. Kind of a problem.

So right now we're all eating pizza and watching Zoey 101.  Honestly the crappiest nickelodeon show ever.  But its hilarious, because it sucks.  Awesome. I live for sucky hilarity.